December 2009
i liked you better before you were naked on the...
it’s amazing what you’ll find when you just open your eyes sometimes love can leave you blind but still you try, to cover all the lies and ignore all the signs sometimes love can leave you blind what i thought was a certainty has left me spinning in circles again
comparing to the last time that we had spoke it seems to me that youre not happy, like you used to be to you i’m like...
cant stand being here anymore
i just want to give up and take you as i fal
if the rumours are true your boys dead.
IT
i dont ever want to love again i dont ever want to love again i dont ever want to love again i dont ever want to love again i dont ever want to love again i dont ever want to love again i dont ever want to love again i dont ever want to love again i dont ever want to love again i dont ever want to love again i dont ever want to love again i dont ever want to love again i dont ever want to love...
yeah okay.
shakespeare got it right i think. it seems these days only the most honest and genuine sensations of love are those that go unfulfilled. theres obviously no beauty in a “happily ever after”. people want tragedy, thats what brings the tears, brings the most raw form of love to the surface.
i guess in a sense im lucky and also in a sense im not. for starters some people don’t even...
compton and long beach, you know you in trouble
i had to get my hair hooked up and dre wanted to get his dick sucked
oh what it is to be the creator how proud we are...
mummy says im all grown up she didnt mention the fear of what ive become
me vs maradona vs elvis
I’ve got desperate desires and unadmirable plans My tongue will taste of gin and malicious intent Bring you back to the bar Get you out of the cold A sober, straight face gets you out of your clothes And they’re scared that we know All the crimes they’ll commit Who they’ll kiss before they get home I will lie awake Lie for fun and fake the way I hold you Let you...
I promise, that one day, everything's going to be...
A storm is coming, Frank says
A storm that will swallow the children
And I will deliver them from the kingdom of pain
I will deliver the children back the their doorsteps
And send the monsters back to the underground
I’ll send them back to a place where no-one else can see them
Except for me
whats the point of living if you dont have a dick?
Ronald Fisher: Beer and pussy. That's all I need.
Sean Smith: We gotta find ourselves a Smurfette.
Ronald Fisher: Smurfette?
Sean Smith: Yeah, not some tight-ass Middlesex chick, right? Like this cute little blonde that will get down and dirty with the guys. Like Smurfette does.
Donnie: Smurfette doesn't fuck.
Sean Smith: That's bullshit. Smurfette fucks all the other Smurfs. Why do you think Papa Smurf made her? Because all the other Smurfs were getting too horny.
Ronald Fisher: No, no, no, not Vanity. I heard he was a homosexual.
Sean Smith: Okay, then, you know what? She fucks them and Vanity watches. Okay?
Ronald Fisher: What about Papa Smurf? I mean, he must get in on all the action.
Sean Smith: Yeah, what he does, he films the gang-bang, and he beats off to the tape.
Donnie: First of all, Papa Smurf didn't create Smurfette. Gargamel did. She was sent in as Gargamel's evil spy with the intention of destroying the Smurf village. But the overwhelming goodness of the Smurf way of life transformed her. And as for the whole gang-bang scenario, it just couldn't happen. Smurfs are asexual. They don't even have... reproductive organs under those little, white pants. It's just so illogical, you know, about being a Smurf. You know, what's the point of living... if you don't have a dick?
Ronald Fisher: Dammit, Donnie. Why you gotta get all smart on us?
turn the fuck back
take me back to ghost town where the sun dont shine and the dirt’s dark brown everyones cries and everyone dies no angels here, no god, only fear no afterlife no heavenly redemption only fifty thousand bodies fucked in cigarettes and beer
lifes a bitch and then you die
i hate this.
She said “Some days I feel like shit, Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,” I don’t understand why you have to always be gone, I get along but the trips always feel so long, And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone, ‘Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone, But I feel like an idiot, workin’ my day around the call, But when I...
masks
nolifeawaits:
they looked so happy
fuck the world for real.
fuck this...
i want you back
its in the blood
PART 1
tom: you can tell youre sick, when you literally feel yourself getting worse
dan: hahahaha, top shit
tom: fuck bullshit, thats what it is
dan: hahaha
tom: my fever is fucked
dan: :(
tom: feels like my balls are gona drop off
dan: :( flu?
tom: swine most likely
dan: nah, swine flu isnt very bad
tom: haha i know swines over-rated
dan: godjeh, its bullshiet haah
tom: i'll tell you whats overrated, fucken mozilla firefox
dan: nah its amazing, just some days it doesnt work
tom: mine always fucks up, but yeah when it works its like a blowjob from jesus
dan: oh yeah
tom: have you seen the movie hamlet 2?
dan: nope
tom: its quite funny
PART 2
dan: how's sucking dick going?
tom: fuck off cuntrash
dan: i wish i had a cunt that would rule
tom: haha i know, i wish i was a girl for a day, id just masturbate and look at my boobs
dan: same haha, i was thinking that the other day, id be like right, right, how big of a dildo can i fit
tom: hahahahah
dan: 12inches here we go
tom: youre a sick fuck man
dan: id even test my ass out. id be a massive slut but id love to tease the boys then rarely put out and just fucking use the guys... god damn i wana be a hot chic
tom: haha youre a fuck, man there are some really ugly people out there
dan: OH YEAH, uni is full of them
tom: haha im playing this thing on facebook and you click yes or no on peoples profiles who pop up, i could do this all day.
dan: hahahah godammit that is great
tom: wtf one is like 15 years old and teh picture is obviously from a porn site.. what a noob.. damn only one match so far, chicks mustnt be diggin my flow
dan: HAHAHA WUT they spelt your name wrong on Triple J
tom: ??
dan: Tom Cafe, i though it was "Kaife"
tom: haha no, its cafe
dan: wrong Kaife :( Cafe... i work at one
tom: noice
dan: turkey is fucking yum
tom: mmmhm
AND HELL YEAH IM THE MUTHAFUCKIN PRINCESS
there are few people in this world who are truely alone but we all stand atop our own mountain surrounded by nothing but firey winds we all know pain, we all know the struggle but what do we do when faced with he void in all its reality do we stand and leap, holding only the hands of ghosts or do we face the darkness together i know for a fact, i got no fuckin idea
its time like these when i...
“jesus can’t save your life
life starts when church ends”
– jigga
stoked
finally found a theme im content with, cheers life xoxo
all i want for christmas is some fucking happiness
when you feel the depression and the anxiety subside thats when the real darkness swallows you
because you have nothing left to care for nothing left to fear nothing left to overcome
apathy sets in
my musical endeavours →
this is me making music by myself, for myself i wouldnt mind if others could enjoy it too
appearance vs reality
i cant sleep in fear of nightmares (where all my lovers die) i cant breath in case i forget (how i wish i couldnt) i cant live its to hard (when you cant see a motive)
kanser
when will this curse be done? when will something work
i cant stand this relentless emptiness
November 2009
belonging?
i wish so desperately to be rid of my conscience i cant stand creativity and its implications upon my soul emotion, love, jealousy, contempt
fuck it all to hell i want to be a zombie feeling nothing but my own fucked up gratifying satisfaction
where do i stand? i dont know.
“all my life i been considered as the worst” but only by myself i cant seem to escape this rut so depressed, its a marathon to crawl out of bed staring across the plain at those i love, holding hands with the heros i hate
i just want to wipe this entire planet clean and in live in uncomfortable content knowing i dont need to worry because theres no one left to worry about
...
doomed.
my dnt major, if the drawings look anything like this will suck fucking so bad
just your local ghost town resident muthafucker -___-
i’ll never be satisfied with anything i do
we should have fuckin shotguns
This is some fucked-up repugnant shit.
dead rabbits
…And no matter what they did to build this city up again, for the rest of time, it will be like no-one even knew we was ever here.
so.. so.. afraid
and sometimes baby this is how it feels